Some times you want to cry but you feel unable to do so. You continue living by hiding all the pain inside your heart, you wish something comes up and make you face your pain again. Today I got a message from a Kashmiri friend, who joined Usman bhai’s page on facebook recently. I will write the whole message here, the words in the message described the fact that we share this pain and this made me cry. Here is the message, unedited;
”I dont know you. But I wish I had. I dont know why they didnt stand up for you. But I wish they would. I dont know what makes me want to know more about you, brother. But I know that those who knew you were lucky to n truly blessed.
I can imagine how it ‘d be for your family , friends n even acquaintances. I know what it means to lose someone to this bloodshed. I have seen them – martyrs – with a smile on their face, like ‘finally in peace’. I have seen them all my life in Indian occupied Kashmir. I know how it feels to look around for someone n realise the person isnt there, n then look around again n feel like he’s very much presentt. I know how absence makes happiness lose all its colour, I know how all colours of life fade..I know how one dies every moment, n I know how one still keeps holding on to tiny strands of hope that justice wont b denied..I know how missing becomes a pain n yet strangely, death becomes a matter of pride too.. ‘Shaheed ki jo maut hai, wo qaum kii hayaat hai’..
I read so much about you, from people who knew you n from those who didnt.And I felt this strange bond develop, this bond that makes me feel the pain n pride ur family does, this bond that makes me feel nothing more than wanting to have known u, this bond that’s making my tears fall..
All I can do for you is pray..a sincere prayer.. May Allah accept ur Shahadah n fulfil the task u gave ur life for, May ur family never feel alone , May ur nation be what it was dreamt to be- the perfect example for all Muslims across the globe!
A stranger, a well-wisher writing to u from the ‘oppressed paradise- KASHMIR’